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Thursday, July 20, 2006

kimi ni aitakute ~_~

(J-Pop) Gackt: Kimi ni Aitakute (I Miss You)
Composer: Gackt C.

Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute
Mou ichido kono te wo tsunaide hoshii
Kono heya ni mada okiwasureta kimi no omokage wo sagashiteiru yo
Me wo tojireba ima mo kimi ga soba ni iru you na ki ga shite
Itsuka wa atarimae no you niWakare ga kuru koto wakatteita no ni
Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute
Wasureru koto nante dekiyashinai kara
Kimi ga mienakute nandomo kizutsuketa keredo
Mou ichido kono te wo tsunaide hoshii
Deatta toki ni koi ni ochite omowazu kimi wo dakishimeteita
Sonna boku ni warainagara "baka ne" to karuku kisu shite
Daremo ga deai to wakare no naka de
Tashika na ai ni kizuiteiku
Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute
Hajimete kimi ni atta hoshizora no shita de
Kimi ni tsutaetai todokanai omoi demo
Boku no kokoro wa mada kimi wo sagashiteiru
Itsuka wa atarimae no you ni
Wakare ga kuru koto wakatteita no ni
Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute
Wasureru koto nante dekiyashinai kara
Kimi no tame nara sou kimi no tame nara...
Mou ichido kono te wo tsunaide hoshii
Itusmo tsunaida te wa atatakakatta
I miss you, I miss you more than anyone
I don't want you to ever let go of my hand again
I forgot where I put it again
I'm looking for my memento of you
If I close my eyes, even now, I feel like you're near
I knew, as if it were natural
We'd part ways someday
I miss you, I miss you more than anyone
Because I could never forget you
I can't see you, and it hurts me so much
But I don't want you to ever let go of my hand
I fell in love the moment we first met, and without thinking I hugged you
While laughing at me, you called me silly and lightly kissed me...
Anyone would recognize certain love
In the midst of meetings and partings
I miss you, I miss you more than anyone
We first met under the starry sky
I want to tell you, even if my feelings aren't returned
My heart is still searching for you
I knew, as if it were natural
We'd part ways someday
I miss you, I miss you more than anyone
Because I could never forget you
If it's for you, yes, if it's for you...
I don't want you to ever let go of my hand
My hand was always warm in yours
thats how i feel right now....im missing leong terribly T___________T and this song expresses it well. Muaks to my gackt sama~
p/s: honestly..tis is the 1st time i missed sumbody tat much after my grandparents ;___; those who wanna noe this song..check out the video that i embedded in..d 2nd vid tat is *cries*

Thursday, July 13, 2006

...../^-^\.....


yay!!! tomorrow is my last day at H.I.S Travel (M) not tat im sad to leave (well sum of my colleagues) but im happy tat im leaving it for good. Working in there drains my "youth" energy away and i really mean it. THis oso explains why i dun blog for a long long time since the last entry. But my colleagues (Jamie, Mei Tze and Lan See) hehe they gave me a farewell gift of that!! *points to the pic on the right* hehe cute eh? looks like me isnt it? XP XP XP

Puppy2, Stacy and Mana's reactions would be:
"eeerr...u ah?!"

aiya..i syok sendiri oso cannot meh? anyway..thx a lot to them all..tho its such a short span of time we're together. I'll cherish it forever..their company...not the company ok. We ate McD for my uhh..soft farewell between us la..it was fun!! *hehe*

Anyway..i have reasons leaving the company. Mainly coz im entering UNISEL tis 28th and another reason is that i cant stand the company superiors! FZM (fei zhu mark..MT gave tis name to him XD) super kiam siap and kinda hentai jiji..most likely to be a bisexual..err..gayly..haiz..i dunno how to explain la. It kinda reminds me of Mr Phillip. Of the same err..species? Well enuf said..Y san oso is super uber stingy..and so does Mary..these are the ultimate KIAM SIAP TRICOMBO in the company! Im happy to leave it and RIco is leaving end of tis month as well. Leaving Meitze and Jamie in the CO. to uhh continue on with his crappy sneerings n blabberings. I pray for them to survive which im sure they will XD.

ANyways..my frens are entering Uni by now. Puppy 1 and Puppy 2 is in the same Uni (UM), Stacy..uh..she din get any uni like me..considering Biotech for UTAR in the next intake, Mana..same as my bro (UNITEN), Nicky (juz gotta noe about it) got into UTM, Edwin (UKM) and me? i'll be in UNISEL doing industrial biotech and leong? well he's still stuck in NS..but naik pangkat ady la..2 stars wor..which i dunno which rank it is. Still..im proud of him =^-^= afterall..he's muah hunny ma XD XD XD ahahaha~

BTW..i juz got back from my trip to sg for cosfest..and boy! it was the worst trip of all..more importantly i dun wanna talk about it at all!. I'll like to apologise to my mom and shaun for realeasing my anger towards them...PMS..uhh..din realise it =_="

Monday, May 29, 2006

back from a faraway land~

well as you wished..im back to blogging in here (wat kinda eng is this?) anyways..not tat im too free or what..im juz waiting for my downloads to finish d/loading..so wat the heck..juz only remembered that i have a blog site and haven update it for ages!! =_="

anyway..wat happend today?? i finally realised that i have eating disorder (actually i realised it for quite sumtime but denied the fact)..not really aneroxia or bullimia..its juz some disorder which i dunno of..my symptoms?? i can eat..but after that..if i get any 2nd helpings..i'll throw up *bleargh* its not that i want to but..the feeling is very unbearable. Maybe its my post depression symptoms T_T *cries* i seriously cant eat much anymore like i used to. Worse is..my gums started to bleed at night!! Every morning..when i wake up to brush my teeth..i'll look as if i've turned into a Vampire..coz all the blood on my teeth and my lips T_T ahhh~~~~i really want a cure T_T

Im really sad that the fact that my BMI (as in Body Mass Index) is 16.1! tat means im seriously underweight =_= . Not that im happy about that althou i noe sum1 who's happy to be stick thin..im really sad!! add up more..my weight! 45kg (been maintaining this since 4 yrs ago except for NS) has dropped to 40.5kg!!! altogether 4.5kg weight lost!! *cries harder* and my waist (also maintained same since last 5 yrs) 26cm >>> 24 cm!! *uwahhh T_T ~~* i can't take it anymore.
I tried to eat more but its just that i really can't eat more!! i need supplements!! and i feel that im suffering from vitamins deficiency. Im so lethargic..anaemic..confused..and emotionally distressed *sigh~*

Besides that..Leong is going for NS!! same camp with me (Setiu Agro Resort terengganu).. *wtf!!! now only they send in his letter* *pissed* i have nothing to say but to support him..however..im juz too worried over his health ^~^ i can't help but to worry bout him..haiz..i hope i can take sum time to travel down to my old camp to see him..

anyway..i've sent in my application for UniSel in shah alam..gotta hope for the best ne~ =)

my downloads are still d/loading..i'll end it here for now

Thursday, February 09, 2006

im back!!!!!!!! X)

yay!! finally im back..as to getting hold of the computer..coz *cries* my mom..she closes her office, and she says we cannot touch anything from d office until its reopened haiz..talking about Feng Shui

anyway..reports of how i spent my CNY tis year

1st day

after the tea and angpau ceremony and stuffs...(b4 tat, sweet condiments to hav a sweet new year ahead) we headed off to the church for the CNY mass..as usual, prayers to the ancestors and blah blah blah~~then, we had lunch at Pizza Hut behind Jusco..so sien..i dun wanna eat pizza so i took speghetti instead. Then, we decided to catch a movie..Memoirs of a Geisha to be precise but where?? Leisure Mall or Times Sq. Dad wanna go LM coz its near..i wanna go TS coz its much more comfortable furthermore..u dun really get tat much of interuptions like i experienced in LM *kick and punch those noisemakers* It was quite a crowd when we reached there..but we got good seats at the back..5.40pm show..ok la. D movie was average..nothing much to brag about except for the Dance of the Capital..tis girl, sitting next to me was shocked to see Sayuri's geta is so high! higher than any platform shoes available here. Well culture shock to them but not to me *grins* After the movie, we ate Teppanyaki (my food came first for the 1st time) but i ate last *swt swt swt* then everybody heads home feeling tired but happy!! I think my parents are relieved coz i din coz any trouble tat day

2nd day

TOday, we travel down to Muar..to see my grandaunt and to enjoy there..but since my mom's new car is so HARD! its impossible for me to sleep moreover every1 sitting behind is squashing me! GAHHH!!!! then..tats the time my mood turns sour..we ate d Char Siew rice when we reached b4 heading to grandaunt's house..its so damn hot! *fanning furiously* so everybody sat on the floor at the house coz its much cooler and i love the floor *rabu rabu* Grandaunt is doing fine even tho there's been a death in the house *sounds like Emily Dickinson's poem huh?* well tis year..no angpau from tat family..*cries* aih..nvm,nvm. In the evening, mom went to her PRIMARY SCHOOL CLASSMATES REUNION DINNER *shocked* its true..and they hav been organizing it 4 3 years oredi..and the teachers? They're still alive and booming nyaa~~ ^~^ well, good for them. We went to Bentayan (my fav food centre in Muar) to eat d duck and prawn mee..but unfortunately, only d prawn mee stall is open..so we ordered..took about ½ and hour to get our plates of mee coz d auntie hav forgotten about it =_=;; for everybody's info..tat prawn mee and duck mee's stall is the most famous in Muar besides Otak-otak *drools* so..wait and wait..then we went to the Tanjung to stroll around..nice place and its getting better!! I ahem..took a chance to become "spotlight" for 1 couple..haha!! naughty of me =p wat to do? they're so cute >_< but when they stand..uh..the guy is about d same height as me..and the girl? U think about it nya! Later tat night..when we slept, dad's snoring is uh!! like a brass ochestra went bad..to add up d effect..d bed is uneven ( i dunno y?) later when mom joins in..she too joins in the "band" too tired i think..but i really had a bad sleep tat day..so be prepared for the consequenses 2mr morning

3rd day

lol!! like i've warned!! im in a super bad mood!! y?! because of all the above plus the hard cushioning in the car!! gahhh!!! X( no point..lil Chuin Yew came to wake me up coz im too hard to wake up after all the disturbance..in short..i din really hav my sleep tat night *so angry* so..as usual..bad mood for the whole day..but on our way back to KL (yes..we went down there for a night stay) we stopped by at the Tanjung again coz dad wanna show mom d new Tanjung..we had Muar rojak and ais kacang tanpa kacang for me. SOunds riddiculus nyaa XD then, we left Muar *bye bye water!!!*

on our way back..its so hot and there's a traffic jam!! where?the usual Senawang and Seremban area *pissed* i dunno y is it always like tat!! X( anyway, the jam in Senawang was caused by stupid driver's attention to a large chopper's flat tyre (d highway fellas were there) we're like wat the f***!!! all the jams for half an hour is juz to hav a look at the oversized motor??? Then..we reached to Seremban..again, i dunno how come this place can be congested coz i dun see much car exiting d exits and entering it..then, policeman were there. To direct the traffic! *shocked and speechless* wat the heck is tat for?? Everyone will be driving straight ahead without left or right turn!! so wats up with the traffic direct??? every1 went back home tired..uh~~we stopped by Petaling St to hav our dinner (totally opposite direction) coz mom wanna eat pig trotters..for CNY wor, we went there, i call my usual Wat TAn Hor *drools* and vege..din eat much coz d wat tan hor tat day was terrible!! (where's my usual wat tan hor ???!!!) after tat, we head home..took bath and sleep

4th day

today, i went out wif Swyish and Dreamer coz i promised Swyish tat i'll go out wif him..Dreamer came along coz its her burfday~~~ *omedettou!!* and nobody's there to celebrate wif her. We meet at Maluri LRT station, took the RM2 bus to KLCC coz i wanna go to Kinokuniya. We're like mad fan screaming over bishies and L'Arc~en~Ciel's album and stuffs!! XD XD XD *kyaa!!!* then, we hav our lunch at Genki Sushi..coz Dreamer likes it (birthday girl wat) We then went to Times Sq coz i cant find the manga tat i want in Kino..furthermore, Kino's book is much pricier than Borders..so there we went~~We bought tickets for My Kungfu Sweetheart b4 going into Borders..i lurv huge bookstores *luv luv* so there i bought 2 books of Ouran High Host CLub (vol 1 and 3..cant find 2 and 4) and i bought Yellow (vol. 2..cant find vol. 1) those who knew..u now Yellow is wat..ahahaha!!! XD XD XD we watched the movie..roam around there for a while and went back..by the RM2 bus coz we dun wanna waste anything..Swyish took the normal bus coz no point for him to stop at maluri and wait for another bus. Called dad to fetch us back home and tats it!

5th day

well, i've forgotten wat i din tat day..so lets skip tis day nyaa

6th day

again, i dunno wat i did..so skip!!

7th day

today is everybody's birthday!!! haiz..im so old ady T_T i went out wif Stacy (Amanda couldnt join us) to meet Kam Wai for movie in the afternoon..but since the tickets were not sold out, juz it cost RM16 per stub!! o_O heck no!! who wanna watch it so ex?! After Kam Wai treated us CHoc sundae from McD..we waited in puppy's shop for Hamtaro =_= aih~~Stacy is playing 2 timer ady *depressed* well..gotta support her decission..but im still worried about her nya. Then we met Hamtaro at 5.30..well, he's short!!! like pertumbuhan terbantut nyaa..or izzit all short guys are like tat?? Somehow, he reminds me of that Korean guy i met while working at Westin (FYI Chen Yee and Jing Weng din like him) oh!! his name is Jin..juz d surname la then..haiz tat evening was so stupid tat i dun wanna discuss it either..but later tat night, i hav tis cravin of going out for yumcha..called Edwin and Soo and Theen Yoong along, TY and Edwin couldnt make it d last minute..*shoot!* well, since i called Stacy along..might as well go out lor since she's out ady. Went to Rendavous in Tmn Billion to yumcha untill 12am..we came back. Mom called b4 tat asking whether i wanna join them for Loh Sang or not. How to loh sang wif them when im out? So i told her to leave sum for me after they loh but since i'll become soggy..mom left d whole item untouched for me to Loh Sang myself T_T

8th day

Tis time..i've forgotten where i went..but i knew tat i came back at night..dad is chasing me to Loh SAng..haiz..so after my bath, i put all the ingredients in order, mom told me to loh it on a table, so there i was..doing it all by myself *boohoohoo T_T* I ate up the food..watch movie and went to bed

9th day

today, i went out wif Stacy, for a job interview..suppose to meet her at 2pm wan, but late again..anyway, skip everything, went thru d interview..so cheong hei wan la tat lady boss. Its awhile for me but i think she's interrogating Stacy or sumthing coz i had to wait quite long..in the end, Stacy got the job and i dont coz i told them i want temporary jobs!! silly me..well..honesty (??) so on our way back..we met Jing Weng in PDI..she was measuring d tiles on the floor i suppose...and wat do u noe..she has the same shoe as Beng Fye..juz tat its pink instead of brown like his! ahaha!!!coincidence X) chatted a while b4 we went to KFC coz im starving!! Met my F4 and F5 add maths teacher!! ahem! Pn Norhayati..with her child! so big eyes u hav X) then we took a bus down to Times Sq coz i need to see Dion regarding the embroidary stuff..which in the end, came out to RM4000 ++ *faints* gahh!!! i dun hav tat much of money nyaa!!! *faints again @_@* Stacy's a lil boring at tat time, so she went to Puppy's shop..to wait for Hamtaro..haiz..i dun really like tat actually..then..all hell loose..i dun wanna talk detailed about it. But i went over to Stacy's house to pai lien wif her family..so pai seh coz din bring kam along. There, we hav a heart to heart talk about sum stuffs..eat, argue, do stupid things and then, her mom gave me a lift back home coz they're going out.



...Tsuzuku...

Friday, January 27, 2006

yesterday..well..since i was online until 4 sumthing in d morning..generally, i'll get headache T_T in the morning. Well there i hav it..it gets worst with mom's driving skills when she took us out to eat lunch. Well, skip d day time story..lets get to d evening one. After i took a paracetamol and slept..until 8 sumthing i guess, I woke up to take my dinner and was looking forward to resume my sleep @_@ then Edwin texted me..asking whether im free enuf to go yumcha..eto..in GENTING HIGHLANDS lol!!!seriously! so i replied him saying tat im free and can go. I took a quick bath (not used to if i go out without bathing..for long distance/long period trips) and waited for him. While i waited for him (for quite sumtime) i watched Malaysia's Most Beautiful..i din watch d whole show coz they came around 10pm and d show is barely halfway thru..gah!!i missed it (i hope Dilla gets d title *prays*) anyway..i was introduced to Wai Hoe (i dunno how 2 spell his name) all from VI but i recognise him from Lingam's class in KLC la..wif another guy and Edwin was shocked tat i din notice him =p i oso dunno why ne..anyway, we went to Taman Desa to change car..met wif another 2 more Victorians..Ai Ling and uh..how to spell his name..well its pronounced as Yazoo (lets put tis name ok?)

He drove us up to Genting Highlands (juz to yumcha!) *shocked* well..ok ler when he drove but judging on d state im in..i got very dizzy everytime he does d corners @_@ on the way up, Wai Hoe cracked up sum jokes and well in directly brings up the happy air in d car nyaa..so funny!! XD XD but most of the jokes are IQ questions la..sum with jawapan bodoh =_=;; well..

We reached to d top at 12am..juz nice..Yazoo parked at d Genting Resort lobby and we alighted, walks to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..to yumcha. I ordered Pure CHoc frappuchino..so cold!! Actually i wanted to order a cup of Hot Choc but Wai Hoe tell me tat all of us are ordering ice blended..so ah! well..there goes my hot cuppa T_T We sat outside of d shop coz Yazoo says tat no point we come up to Genting Highlands to yumcha and sit inside of d shop. So all 5 of us sat outside freezing ourselves while enjoyin our "hot" drinks XD we talked about our jobs, Edwin's job, Ai Ling's job, Yazoo's ponteng period and Wai Hoe's clubbing time..and oso mine la..talked about anything tat goes into our mind..Then we talked about students in SMK Cheras..movies (horror movies to b precise) and ahem..ghost encounters..and stuffs la *its oredi midnight* in short, we spent our time then talking and laughing loudly (Wai Hoe only..eto..maybe guys la) then..checked out 1 hot couple kakaka!!! XD

We took leave about 3am in the morning..wif everyone in the car tired and satisfied (wats not to be satisfy but to come all the way to Genting to yumcha?!) i slept thruout d journey down waking up occasionally becuz of bumps d car experienced. FYI, everyone in the car except for me hav work 2day..and all of them except Edwin starts work at 9am and Edwin (school hours..6am ler) i dunno how they manage la but Wai Hoe is planning not to go to work ady whereas Edwin got no choice..coz he's teaching. Ai Ling..oso hav2 work..We reached Ai Ling's house exactly 4am..Wai Hoe took his rest (more like he doesnt wanna move ady) they we talked again for a while..till 4.30 i think and we took off cz Ai Ling wanna retire ady (dun wanna disturb her ler). Wai Hoe took us back..we talked again in d car la and he's trying 2 get me a job in Maxis Centre ( i hope i'll get it)

well, its nearly 5 when i reach back home..so, cleared my table and stick my table's cover..then im off to bed =_=

Thursday, January 26, 2006

nearing CNY!!!! XD XD XD

ohhh CNY is nearing *red indian dance* haha!! so happy!!! XD at last, i managed to get all my CNY garments *yay!* well wat to do..i only shop for clothes once a year ^~^ haiz coz im so poor (but rich enuf to make cosplay costume nya..) anyway, i've received 2 gud news and 1 bad news today.

Lets start wif d gud news: firstly, im going 2 singapore!! *dances* for CNY *throws confetti* secondly..im gonna visit my great great grand auntie "i repeat its GREAT GREAT GRAND AUNTIE" o_O'' its hard to believe it at first but its _______ (i cant find a word to describe my feelings) to noe tat i've got such Great x2 relatives muahaha!!! XD but its nice to noe tat she's alive and booming. Well, d bad news is tat haiz im happy going 2 singapore for CNY but i got no money to spend T_T so sad..to realise tat i can get so many cosplay stuff from there T_T well, gud things must come wif a kesan nyaa. I cant expect it to be honey all the time right?? *nods*

today, i went shopping again o_O" (again??!! yes again..well almost everyday if any1 notice it) *swt swt swt* haiz..got nothing to do at home wat..sumore im broke ady (still can go shopping *swt*) anyway, i din go without reasons like i used to. I went tis time to get my contacts and to get another shirt for CNY (mom says tat 1 is not enuf wor..) so ok ler..i managed to get a RM19.90 shirt which i paid RM19 (and puppy paid for d remaining one) im so clueless nya..thx for forking out d extra nya B-kun *hugs* then..walk, walk, walk d whole day emm..juz walking and browsing lor..shops to shops. Till now, which i juz realised, there are lots of cloths in my opinion is not for human to wear! Either d designers are a total tasteless or d customers are err..dumb. Why i said this is..i think its not my taste and furthermore..d designs are horrible and not for human wear *speechless* seafood taste i think..haiz.. ^~^ well..i've nothing more to write down except oh! i've forgotten! Uncle scolded me today for not remembering my brakes..which i feel like they dun exist in d car at all *swt swt swt* nyaa..*-* *makes note in mind to remember d brakes*

so..to everyone tat reads my blog (only a handful of u out there) a very HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD *esp to nii-chan and Shaun..sorry i din send any cards*

puppy!!! nice going out with u..but dun be like an auntie nya =p

Monday, January 23, 2006

*shocked, speechless, still shocked and speechless*

when heaven and earth reunites, it means hari kiamat to me..tats wat happen when i receive the news tat him and her..are going out!!! *shocked* whoa~~of all ppl!! can u imagine it??i suspected him when B-kun told me about it but not her!! its like a total mismatch! but then again...this proves love is either blind or greed..^~^ haizz..i oso dunno ady to think about it..imagine a holy and pious priest and ahem...her!! ROFL i am really still in d state of shock!and seriously, its more shocking then d Sept 11th's incident.. ^~^

but put tat aside..i've bought all my CNY clothings ady yay!! *throws confetti* left my socks. Planning to get d buy 3 pairs for RM10 ones..see la.Bought a rugged pants (for RM89.90)which send my puppy to "eyahh!!" and a green *unbelievable" t-shirt with a bunny skull logo (RM25) hehe XD. Stacy took quite a long time to get her boots..a lil regreted y she din bought d ones in Sg Wang b4 coming over to Times Sq..but i think d boots in TS is better than those in SW because of d heels..are sturdier and broader than those in SG (like lidi sticks only!) Amanda still couldnt find her boots (no size ady T_T) and her skirt..coz Stacy's piano teacher called her up to tell her to go back home for class (which we left immediately)..but it was a fun day X3 going out with frens and not alone like all these while (only for 1 day la) all in all..Amanda bought sum t-shirts, Stacy bought a white cardigan and boots and i bought a t-shirt and a pants..and now im really broke!! gahh!!!!!!!!!! X( X( X(
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